Thursday

"When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul"
Psalm 94:19

It is Thursday night and things have been going pretty well this round of chemo. I am still feeling fairly energetic and without pain (praise the Lord), this is unusual for day 3! I am getting my 5th dose of Cytoxan now and will get the last dose at 10:30 tomorrow morning. I will then have to wait 12 hours and can receive my last two drugs: Vincristine (this is the one that causes my nueropathy) and Doxorubicin. The Doxorubicin runs over 24 hours so that will push me to a Sunday morning discharge which is disappointing since I won't be able to go to church, but it is what it is. I have had the same day nurse and night nurse twice in a row and we have loved them both. They have made my stay on the 10th floor a lot better than I was anticipating. I have snuck up to the 12th floor a few times each day to visit with my friends so that helps as well. As a matter of fact I don't think I would be devastated to be on 10 again, but decided I need to be on 12 at least for my last round :)
This week has been a difficult week for me emotionally since it was the last week of school. I was so sad to be sitting here at the hospital instead of giving my sweet class hugs, telling them to have a great summer, and I can't wait to see them as 1st graders in the Fall! I was also feeling guilty knowing that my team was doing all my end of the year work and packing up my room. At the same time I reminded how blessed I am to be teaching at Sampson and working with such wonderful people. As much as I want to be in control, I try to remember that God's timing is best and he hasn't failed me yet even though cancer at the age of 26 was definitely not in my plans! Thanks for your prayers through this treatment... please continue to pray for no complications and no body aches!